Mantanona
Status: Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
Mood:
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I'm so stressed out right now. My baby isn't even here yet and I'm already dealing with having to choose between the needs of one son or the other. I found out today we have orders to Ft. Sam Houston...
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33 Weeks! It's not going fast enough. I want this baby to stay in there as long as he needs to but I really want to finally hold him. As for me, aside for being very uncomfortable and all the dizzy...
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So now I'm at 32 weeks, and having this baby still seems so far off. My new goal...35 weeks. Since I have 4 other friends due around the time I am, I've decided to wait for the one due March 14 to...
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Happy Valentines Day Everyone!I love this holiday. It was 9 years ago today that my husband asked me to marry him. It's actually a really sweet story. I was 16 going on 17 and in my first year of...
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31 weeks and counting! I've gone from always worried to pretty darn sure this baby is coming. I've even decided I can sell my doppler now....anyone need one?...Now my old problems are being replaced...
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Last night I had my very first baby shower! Actually it wan't just for me, it was a triple baby shower. Two of my other friends are also expecting and we're all three weeks apart from eachother. One...
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I cant believe i've finally hit my 30th week! It doesn't seem that long ago I was sitting on my kitchen floor crying about the loss of my baby last year. 10 more weeks, maybe less and I'll have my...
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I havent been on much lately..Between Jarretts Birthday Memorial and the Death of my Father in Law Saturday..I guess I was too overwhelmed to write. Today I took a few hours off from reality and went...
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As Jarrett's birthday approaches, the knot in my stomach grows bigger and bigger. August 6th, the Green Knights have volunteered a memorial ride in Jarrett's name. August 10th what should have been...
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Last night Jonny asked me if we got the house sold and bought a new house if Jarrett could come back. I HATE that I have to explain to my 3 year old how death works and that his brother can never...
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Today I stopped at the commissary to get some groceries. I got to the produce section and picked up a lemon...and out of no where I could hear my Jarrett's voice "Mommy can we buy some lemons to make...
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I'm not exactly sure what happened, but after three days of having complete meltdowns I've retreated back to a state of almost unnatural calmness. I went into Jarrett's room several times today and...
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Matthew and I are both grieving in our own ways, but Matt has his job to go to and distract him from the pain. Not a moment goes by in my day that in not thinking of my son. I feel so guilty that...
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Matt and I are set for Baptism this Sunday and I'm having some issues with it...I am still Harboring so much anger and hatred towards the kids that killed my son..I am Years away from forgiveness if...
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Our Baptism is next Sunday..Something Jarrett should have been doing with us..I'm so sad hes not here..I cant go a minute without thinking of my sweet little boy and how his life was so unfairly...
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