IDidThisToMyself
Status: Decided to come back...I need something. Hope, mostly...support.
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i cannot do this anymore, i cant live like this.for the past few weeks ive been sleeping all day and up all night.i must of fallen asleep around 1pm today and its 12am and just woke up. woke up with...
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They say you are in heaven.They say you are with the angels.They say you are in a better place.But I say I am with an angel,Because in my heart you are with me.
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Dear Angel, Last night I took out the things that were given to me from the hospital the day you were born. Your little shirt and beanie still smelled just like you. It made me feel very close...
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why is this happening.why did this happen.i want to hold him again, just one more time, id do anything in this world. please just make this stop. i want to wake up and have this not be real. how can...
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nothing seems important anymore.i want to make joshua proud, but i dont have the strength to get up anymore.ive lost 15 pounds already, and its still dropping rapidly. thats an extra 6 pounds i lost...
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I don't know where to begin, I'm not even sure what I want to write..so I'm just going to go with whatever is on my mind right now. We had the funeral service today. Everything was SO amazingly...
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At 3:00am on July 28, 2008 I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, Joshua Edward Fritzler. He was only 5 months old, weighed 1 pound, and was 10 inches long. He was with us in this world for a precious...
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Ugh, I am going nuts. I went back to the doctor and he was really blunt with me, even though it scared the crap out of me. I was lucky enough to be able to stay at my own house since I'm only a few...
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I called up my doc today and they wanted me to come to the office IMMEDIATELY. I finally got there and they did an ultrasound and the baby is doing good, which is SUCH a relief to me, not really...
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UGH!
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I just woke up, it's 3:30am, and I can't fall back asleep for anything.Since the last time I wrote, I'm still spotting, but I guess that's normal.Last night, I swear I felt the baby move. The feeling...
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well thats a little frusterating. i wrote a whole journal entry out and it didnt post it. ok back to writing it again. *this entry is a little graphic* just when things start to get better...blah,...
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i haven't written in here for awhile, sorry that i haven't and thank you to everyone who helped me and gave me kind words and advice along the way. i talked to my doctor and he suggested some...
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im terrified right now.i admitted to my mom that i have an addiction with xanax. ive been taking about 3 a day of .5mg, usually before meals, otherwise i cant eat. ive been addicted to xanax for...
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im too tired to even write in this.im still bleeding/spotting/cramping almost everyday.on the 5th i have a doc appointment to see if things are still ok.i just like....dont care anymore. all i do all...
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