HEARTBROKEN
nothing seems important anymore.i want to make joshua proud, but i dont have the strength to get up anymore.ive lost 15 pounds already, and its still dropping rapidly. thats an extra 6 pounds i lost prior to being pregnant.food is disgusting to me, i cant force myself to eat more than a granola bar.my hands wont stop shaking, i cant stand without being dizzy.it feels like im slowly dying inside. i just want to be with josh right now, no matter how selfish that sounds.
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You need some medical intervention, now, sweetheart.
I got some therapy after my loss and it helped alot. Maybe you should look into that. And remember you will see your little Joshua one day but in the mean time just know that hes with you.
I\'m so sorry about your loss, I can say in some ways I understand, I also lost my baby girl Isabelle Grace on June 1, 2008 at 8 months pregnant after 6 weeks of bedrest for a high risk pregnancy.
Be kind to yourself and recognize that you are grieving and all things that you are feeling, including feeling nuts, are very normal. I wanted the world to stop because I was so lost, but the world kept moving and that was difficult. It was difficult to brush my teeth and change clothes. But, as cliche as it sounds, it does get easier. Don\'t panic... keep talking... tell us how you feel... and if you don\'t feel like food, maybe a sip of juice... and if you have any resources about the process of grieve use them... it\'s been 9 weeks and its hard but easier than it was 9 weeks ago... today I ate at 400pm after work ... but i\'ve mostly been living on nicotine and caffiene....
I hope this helps in some small way to know that someone else knows how you feel and you have someone to talk to if you need it. Laura
You are in my thoughts and prayers Jenny. What you are feeling is normal, but you need to talk to someone. Try seeing a counselor, or your pastor. They will help you get through this. As Laura said, it will get easier although I know it doesn\'t seem like it will. Please take care of yourself. Stay strong and I am always here for you. I love you dear. Tell your mom I said hello. Please talk to someone honey, maybe your mom will even go with you.
love you much,
Debbie
My heart breaks reading this....sweetheart these feelings that you are having are normal, as many of us that have lost a child know exactly how you feel. Just remember you are not alone in this....we are all here for you. Joshua is looking down on you and will be with you forever. I know its not easy maybe it will help if you talk to someone face to face. I found that this site was helping me but I found a support group in my area that helped tremendously maybe you could look into that. Im always here....AKISHA
Your in my thoughts and prayers. I miscarried 9 months ago. I know that its not the samething though, but i do understand what your going through though.
Jen, please go and get some help. As I have never experienced anything like what you are going through, I really don\'t think I can give you meaningful advice here, but I don\'t want to see you destroy yourself. All of us here really care about you. I guess think of it like this: someday, you may have another child--that child will never replace Joshua, but, that child will need you, too. Don\'t destroy yourself and ruin the chances that you will get to experience that and be a mom again. Right now, concentrate on yourself--it might help you get your mind off of things. Then, when you are REALLY ready, try again!
I know it\'s much easier said than done, and this won\'t take away the pain, but it\'s something to think about. You are in my prayers and if you need to talk, feel free to email me.
Hun plz eat or u r going to end up like me go c my profile i\'m worried about u.And i totaly understand u want to b with u baby but u know deep in your heart he wouldnt want that he will be your angel watching u the rest of your life. Plz try to eat something if u cant do it for yourself do it for that precious Josh he would want u to eat like all of us do,HUGS to u hunny.I\'m here 4 u