hurts so bad
why is this happening.why did this happen.i want to hold him again, just one more time, id do anything in this world. please just make this stop. i want to wake up and have this not be real. how can this be real. how can my baby be gone. why did he deserve this...what did i do to deserve this, any of this...what if it wasnt in gods plan to take him, what if it was something i did. what if i wasnt resting enough like i should of been. i wish i could go back and change so many things. i dont even know if he was in pain before he passed. what if he was in pain, and i couldnt do anything to help him. i would do anything for him not to be in pain and i dont even know if he was. it was a mistake to take him, it had to be a mistake.i dont want this to be real anymore.
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Gosh I wish I could say or do something to help ease your pain. But only time will help that. i know the pain of losing a child and nothing will help but time. Try going and gettind some couseling, i did and it helped me alot. Whatever you may think Your little angel was taken for a reason and only god knows that, it wasnt anything you did. I spent alot time blaming myself too, and in some ways I still do. But you cant live your life blaming yourself. Im here for you anytime and please hang in there, remember your little guys watching you so you gotta be strong.
Oh sweetie this was NOT your fault. Only God knows why He took him. Please see a counselor, It will help you cope and understand that you did nothing wrong. Some things are just out of our control. This was one of those things. Please don\'t blame yourself honey. You take care of yourself and remember that I love you and will be here night and day for you. I have not been on much lately as I lost my grandmother this past week. If you get a chance you can read my last journal entry. It is hard to talk about...
Remember that i am here and that i love you very much. I wish i was there to hug you and help you through this most difficult time. Hang in there dear and you will make it. Know that i am here and you have my phone number,Call me anytime. I love you very much. Keep in touch.
Love and hugs,
debbie
Hun ita with NCN it isnt your flaut and i wish i could take your pain away for u,it just break my heart to c u going thru so much.Know i care about u if u ever want to chat i\'m here love em