Asics

Met with Dave again.  Good talk about what addiction really is about, how I am utterly and hopelessly powerless (a huge ego drain). But that I can be releived by a higher power!  My Higher Power is...

I'm 3 days sober again.  Trying to feel my feelings is tricky.  If I'm feeling pain, what do I want to do?  Medicate of course?  I mean if you have a headache wouldn't you take some advil my...

I'm no longer sober as of today.  Monday I broke my sobriety and last night though I didn't have contact with pornography I may as well have.  I am still engaging in the addictive behavior to cope...

Ok, so I didn't handle the call I had at work the way I should have.   Why does everyone place so much judgement on one failed attempt.  My boss says all this crap about teamwork and then turns...

Well 3 days so far, I am doing ok.  Everyone is thinking I am doing excellent.  I can hardly see that.  I want to have integrity and be in the world.  And have real relationships, not based on...

Holy Crap on a stick!  I'm feeling pretty good today.  I have no idea why, same circumstances.  I'm enjoying my life.   I'm not accustomed to doing this.  Thank God!!!!  My sponser, Randy, God...

I don't understand it.  I know that faith is an important piece of the puzzle in life.  But why would God make the world the way it is and then expect us to have faith.  How can we believe in...

I don't understand it.  I know that faith is an important piece of the puzzle in life.  But why would God make the world the way it is and then expect us to have faith.  How can we believe in...

The reality of what I did last evening has hit again.  Why can't I live in my fantasy world and be alone with it!! Why does reality always come back, reality in my opinion sucks!!  No matter how...

Well I'm still sober.  It was a tough night last night only in the fact that I had researched human pheremones esp. those that are sexual but realized what I was doing and stopped and went  back to...

Ok I am two days sober from th is addiction.  This addiction is screaming it's ugly head at me and wanting me to engage in that behavior again.  But that behavior leads to death.  I can stop...

Ok Gretechen supports me a lot.  I know that to be true.  I am currently at a turn point.  Based at what I've been told through working the steps and counseling here is what needs to happen....

I'm having issues thinking.  I value everyone's feedback on this site.  And I know now that I am not along facing these OCD obsessions.  Sometimes I live my entire day with it.  But reflecting on...

I'm scared of everyone's reactions.  I'm scared of people at work.  I'm scared of being critized, I'm scared of it all.  I don't know what to do anymore.  I feel so disconnected from who I am and...

I don't know how many other people struggle with this but I have an obsession with used women's underwear.  The obession I know is gross but I cannot seem to shake it.  It's very powerful and very...