Asics

I'm lonely today and feeling a bit down.  God how I want to medicate these feelings with beer or sex or something.  Adding insult to injury doesn't seem the way recovery works.  In addition the...

It seems like for those of us who are christian anyway it is hard to trust our own thoughts and feelings because as the scriptures indicate our own thoughts and feelings are sin.  But I really...

I've got a week free from pornography!!  But I still want and desire to be in some kind of relationship. 

I have a lot of Trust issues.  It's hard to trust people in the light of knowing that at heart we are all sinners.  Trusting people can break your heart but it can also provide life for yourself. ...

Well I'm lucky and blessed to have good friends in recovery.  What was the verse, If God be for us, what can stand against us?  So much of everything makes me think I have to perform to earn God's...

The day starts out OK.  I'm kinda tired and one thought that is persistent is the vanity of the day or the effort I put out ending in exhaustion and unfulfillment.  Once again if my aim is...

ibsc IS WORKING over time in my head again trying to get me back to the same addictive thought patterns.  90 meetings in 90 days is a lot to attend but I suppose I've gotten so far off the mark...

Met with Dave again.  Good talk about what addiction really is about, how I am utterly and hopelessly powerless (a huge ego drain). But that I can be releived by a higher power!  My Higher Power is...

I'm 3 days sober again.  Trying to feel my feelings is tricky.  If I'm feeling pain, what do I want to do?  Medicate of course?  I mean if you have a headache wouldn't you take some advil my...

I'm no longer sober as of today.  Monday I broke my sobriety and last night though I didn't have contact with pornography I may as well have.  I am still engaging in the addictive behavior to cope...

Ok, so I didn't handle the call I had at work the way I should have.   Why does everyone place so much judgement on one failed attempt.  My boss says all this crap about teamwork and then turns...

Well 3 days so far, I am doing ok.  Everyone is thinking I am doing excellent.  I can hardly see that.  I want to have integrity and be in the world.  And have real relationships, not based on...

Holy Crap on a stick!  I'm feeling pretty good today.  I have no idea why, same circumstances.  I'm enjoying my life.   I'm not accustomed to doing this.  Thank God!!!!  My sponser, Randy, God...

I don't understand it.  I know that faith is an important piece of the puzzle in life.  But why would God make the world the way it is and then expect us to have faith.  How can we believe in...

I don't understand it.  I know that faith is an important piece of the puzzle in life.  But why would God make the world the way it is and then expect us to have faith.  How can we believe in...