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I'm just here for the number, really.  Things are quiet. Hopeful. Afraid to hope. My daughter, I don't know... I hope, and I'm afraid to hope. Better just to... I don' t know... can't think about...

This is a PM I wrote to one of my DS friends Frostie. It's so long, it qualifies as a journal entry: "I struggled too, so very much like you have, for the past 2 or 3 years, knowing I had an...

Talked to my counseler today. Family counselor. Just me, without the family,  but I had no problem filling up the 50 minutes...  I was lamenting to her that there is no support for ED's in our...

I gave Bulimia 30 years of my young life... but the past 6 months have been mine. MINE. 6 months of finding out just how much was being taken from me, all those years... My time, my resources, my...

Or should I say, nightmares.. Every 3 or 4 days or so, I have a dream in which I knowingly take a few sips of a drink with alcohol... I only drink a few ounces, and then a huge wave of...

You know, I wasn't really concerned about underage drinkers at this party, because if we were going to serve beer, I was going to have my SCARY STINK-EYE trained on it the whole time, there was going...

Approaching 6 months sober!!!I actually feel pretty good. But I think I had a drinking dream last night. I can't remember, but I think I drank about 3 or 4 oz of some sort of alcoholic drink... and I...

Back from jaunt to Erie with 3 kids. Feeling good. Sunburned. Hopeful. Afraid. Worried. But good. Oldest daughter is still... on my mind,... in my heart... please God, please God, help me to see the...

Wow.  How did I sneak up on the Big Six?  It went fast! I woke up this morning and I went HUH?! WHA?!  How did that happen? Here's how I feel: I made it through the kids' vacation week without...

I'm struggling too. My kids are on vacation this week, with their grandparents, my husband works daylight, and so that leaves me... me and my 4 walls... and my sobriety. I AM A PARTY IN A BOX, I...

Very busy and important... vacation, kids are gone with Grandma, house to myself, keeping busy, on the run, keep running, right... HAR!

Okay, this is from Dr. Wayne Dyer, I took out one of his audio books from the library (nerd), and I, gasp, actually listened to it, and, holy crap, actually LEARNED some stuff! This is awesome: "When...