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Sigh. I was a pain in the ass last night. I'm not getting enough sleep. I was mean to my husband.  and then I woke up at 2 a.m. again, and I'm still up, it's 10 a.m. I need more sleep! Grrr... But...

I feel so good. I'm really here. I'm... me.This is really me. 5 months sober, 5 months free of bulimia. I feel free of it. I'm eating like a normal person. Well, like a normal person with a...

Ooooo in the pinnnnkkk...Sunday. Last night, made love with husband. This is noteworthy, as it has been months, MONTHS, has it been 6 or 7 months?! That is insane! My husband is HOT! I am HOT! WHAT...

I'm back from  Girls Only Week At The Beach, Featuring Sand, Surf, and Sangria... (6 "girls" (ages 44-52) in a beach house, a block from the ocean, 3 blocks from the boardwalk and town and the bars...

I woke up this morning and realized, I'M SOBER!!! I feel so good! Monday morning, and I am sober and I didn't do a bunch of stupid shit on the weekend, I didn't say stupid stuff, I didn't embarrass...

Today is gonna be great! I intend to have a great day.

Up and down and down and up and up and down and catastrophe and miracle and catastrophe and miracle... Such is my life. I'm dizzy for all the flipping and flopping.  Prom and graduations and new...

We had friends over today. We sat on the porch over iced tea and brownies,... and chatted and laughed and felt the sunshine and the breeze... And I was ME, without the fog of alcohol. Without the ...

I work today. I don' wanna.  1st grade. Sigh. Yesterday we got a call that the owner of the house we're in the process of buying, DIED. So I thought, shit, this won't work out, the house will be...