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I used to feed off of remarks like "Oh, you're so TINY", or "How do you stay so THIN"... Meanwhile I was consumed with staying that way, and I was consumed with food, thoughts of food, getting...

Forget what I said in my previous post, that was some bullshit, whiny face , cry baby stuff... I'm sorry I ever let it fly... but it was what I was thinking at the time.... bad morning... following...

Today. I'm going today. I'm losing it. I'm watching myself fall, fast and hard. I have lost my daughter. I can't deal with her sickness. I can't deal with my own. I can't fix us both, I can't even...

I made it through a tough one last night, another wedding, this one was one of my brother's friends, so it was childhood, neighborhood-type people and stuff, and  my crazy brother, and my sisters......

I'm just here for the number, really.  Things are quiet. Hopeful. Afraid to hope. My daughter, I don't know... I hope, and I'm afraid to hope. Better just to... I don' t know... can't think about...

This is a PM I wrote to one of my DS friends Frostie. It's so long, it qualifies as a journal entry: "I struggled too, so very much like you have, for the past 2 or 3 years, knowing I had an...

Talked to my counseler today. Family counselor. Just me, without the family,  but I had no problem filling up the 50 minutes...  I was lamenting to her that there is no support for ED's in our...

I gave Bulimia 30 years of my young life... but the past 6 months have been mine. MINE. 6 months of finding out just how much was being taken from me, all those years... My time, my resources, my...