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- i havent really been active on DS for like a month...no one talks to me on here anymore and i dont have friends on here anymore:(....i miss people caring about me and i miss talking to me and im debating whether or not i shud come back on here. i...
- i feel very alone with this...i know that an ed is an eating..doesnt matter who has it ..its still hard but i feel really sad cuz people are always telling me im black and will always be curcy (nice word for fat) and that i will never be skinny. and...
- im really scared......i dont wanna be here....i dont wanna do this anymore....please can someone message me or something? be my friend? please...i only wanna talk to a female please
- ive been eating just soup...i refuse to eat anything else besides fresh spinach, fruit, and salad and chicken.and just drinking water...sometimes ill slip and have the rice my mom makes, sandwhiches and have juice and sweets ...i dont ever wanna...
- after 7 months being cut free i snapped tonite and carved..i only carved one other time in my 3 years of cutting...tonite WAS ONE OF THE WORST \NIGHTs for me ...i had this huge fight with my mom and she started fighting me physically and slapping me...
- Hii just binged after work tonite..i came home at 10. i ate alot all day....my stomach hurts really bad..and i really wanna purge but i promised my therapist i wouldnt...and ive gone almost 5 months without doing so. im soo uncomfortable...its soo...
- so last nite during my racing thoughts, i stumbled on a thought that made me really think. how would you feel if ur psychiatrist gave you a placebo (sugar pill) and said it would help with the bipolor and u took it and felt sooo much better ..like...
- I'm upset. Today is terrible already...I wanna hurt myself wich I will...fuckkk:(Bye
- im sooo mad at myself..i gained 5 poundssss!! fuckkk...i just wanna drop off the face of the earth...i wanna cut so deep i lose the 5 lbs through losing the blood. my moms fucking bf called me week...i dont give a fuck tho....ill show him that im...
- today i was completely honest with Jaime and my psychiatrist. its crazy that i told them about this actually thinking about it. i told them how i crave attention alot and about my fears to be left alone. i always need someone there for me caring for...
- last nite i drank so much that i couldnt walk without bumping into things and wen i talked even tho it made sense to me my brother said i sound like an idiot lol i was so numb last nite..wen i came home...i managed to rip an expensive shirt and pee...
- i was at a baby shower and the lady just hands me a slice of cake so i dont wanna be rude and so i ate it..it was terribly sweet and then i was like well since i ruined today i might as well have this chocolate lolipop (i lo00o0o0ve chocolate) and...
- hi..im 18....im had problems with ovarian cyst since i was 12....i had a pelvic ultrasound in july and threre was nothing there so my dr said the cyst probaably ruptured....i didnt get my period from june to the end of august....i got my period 3...
- ive had my germaphobia since i was 13...im 18 1/2 now and ive been working with my behaviorist for almost a year and ive gotten better with my ocd and hand washing. but one thing that still terifies me soooooooo much is bathrooms...more public...
- idk i have this constant need for people....like im terrified of being alone...since i was like in 6th grade, ive always needed a school counselor or teacher (female) to just be there for me... and give me hugs ..someone to care about me all the...