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Or lack there of? I know things are going WELL for me right now...getting back in shape, eating better...controlling the drinking. I don't really dwell on my ex much anymore...today was very tough...

  We'll today's my Birthday, yey. I know today's going to be hard, every year my wife and I did special things for our birthday's..Not this year. Woke up way to early today, unfortunatly now i...

So i woke up on Monday with a horrible feeling. I felt this feeling before...I was 16...300 pounds, never had a girlfriend yada yada ya know. And i said to myself, What the fuck am i doing to myself?...

7:22AM on a Sat...what am i doing awake? Oh wait i know, im sitting here thinking about what my ex was doing last night. sigh, how do i forget. I do not want to love her anymore.

I feel unhappyI feel so sadI'v lost the best friendThat I ever hadShe was my womanI loved her soBut it's too late nowI've let her goI'm going through changesI'm going through changesWe shared the...

You know, for so many year's i honestly thought my wife was the reason i was unhappy, she wasnt the greatest early on our marriage, her depression and anxiety eventually brought me into it also. I...

I was in my hotmail account earlier this evening....came across a folder,"Keely" my ex wifes name...opened it up and it was every Email we ever sent eachother. We had to do a long distance...

  Instead of another vent journal I think im going to try to take a different route with this one..... I want to change.  I want to know what it feels like to be happy, I want to know what it...

Havent really payed attention but going over my ex wifes and I's text's.... Im just wes now... no hun.. no babe.. just..."wes" That realization really....really hurt.

I'm all messed up!! Nothing new..lol I just would really like some balance in my life right now..between Work, Music and family/friends...and of course, my head. I am not sure how i feel today, to...

Woke up this morning after about 3 hours sleep to get ready for a fun day at work. As soon as i opened my eyes i got that dread feeling, the "bad" butterfly's in the stomach and started getting...

I do not even know were to begin with this one............. Wife and I are going through a divorce, I am PERFECTLY happy with that, I wanted out for awhile.The night she told me she wanted to split,...

Not good today. Ready to lose it.  

For the first time in 9 months i can honestly say, at this very moment...in this second that im typing this, Im calm..at peace..was this how it was before all the anxiety/depression? God what a...

Amazing song..by Helloween.Here I stand all aloneHave my mind turned to stoneHave my heart filled up with iceTo avoid its breakin twiceThanx to you, my dear old friendBut you cant help, this is the...