How pathetic do i feel..
Woke up this morning after about 3 hours sleep to get ready for a fun day at work. As soon as i opened my eyes i got that dread feeling, the "bad" butterfly's in the stomach and started getting nauseated. My depression has increased by about 700% since my wife told me she wanted to split and she is now seeing someone eles. I moved back in with my parents which is going to be tough as it is. All day' i've had to fight to urge to text her, and just tell her I want kid's I want this to work, and we need to give this another chance, but how can I? She started seeing a, "friend" the day after we split, there was no healing process, time, or respect shown...also they work together. Sigh. I'm gravitating to her, i feel like im not right if shes not around but when she is I want to fucking lose it because of the whole situation. I have no idea how i am going to get through this. I know she's going away with this guy and a few friends from work this weekend, its been eating at me all week...I'll be home, feeling like I want to die and she'll be having a ball with a new relationship...I supported her financially for 4 year's, helped her over come her anxiety and agoraphobia only to be kicked in the face for some other dude. Which according to her "Everyones putting way to be emphasis on him.." Which is bullshit, THAT is my issue, to see her move on so quickly, so effortlesly. I cant think about dating or seeing someone eles, because all i can fucking think about is her. Pathetic much? Ya. I'm not sure how i'm going to deal this weekend, im dreading it, i want this work week to last for 2 years. Jesus. I dont think she has any idea of what a broken man she has made me, I was depressed, my anxiety and panic attack's started about 7-8 months ago...Bi-polar episode again, and she decides now's a great time to drop this on me. Way to go. Thanks...yet i still feel so guilty and feel this is all my fault? How fucked is that. I'm going to stop writing now because I'm just getting more and more pissed off.
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Don\'t ever feel pathetice for what your heart is feeling! you\'re suffering from a broken heart, wich is very common!
When you love someone as much as you loved her, It\'s hard to let go! unfortunitally, In your case, for her.... it wasnt hard!
but, you have to be strong! You can do it....
You have to ask yourself...
A woman that wont comfort me when im in pain?? Is that what i want??
A woman who Shares love for another man??
I dont mean to point out each and everything that bothers you! But, it\'s something you may need to re-cap before letting yourself come in contact with her.
I know it\'s hard, i\'ve been there.. this is the hardest part, Letting go of what you thought to be your life!
But once it\'s over, the barrier will be lifted off of your shoulders and you can be who you are with A stronger woman who wouldnt dream have not having you by her side!
im telling you, what your feeling is normal. there are many times i want to call my ex....but i know i cant. but i wont lie there have been times i have made a \"excuse\" to \"have\" to go over there just to check things out but to be honest it only made things worse on myself. You have to fight the feeling that you need to call her...you can move on...and you will move on...but in due time. If she wanted to talk to you like you want to her...she would call, but she is with a man...is that someone you really want to fight to be with? A person can only fight so much for someone...but once you see the other not fighting for you yourself then you have to move on...its hard but your a good person and better things will come once you let them. *HUGS*