guitarwes

I do not even know were to begin with this one............. Wife and I are going through a divorce, I am PERFECTLY happy with that, I wanted out for awhile.The night she told me she wanted to split,...

Not good today. Ready to lose it.  

For the first time in 9 months i can honestly say, at this very moment...in this second that im typing this, Im calm..at peace..was this how it was before all the anxiety/depression? God what a...

Amazing song..by Helloween.Here I stand all aloneHave my mind turned to stoneHave my heart filled up with iceTo avoid its breakin twiceThanx to you, my dear old friendBut you cant help, this is the...

I am not too sure why i am taking this so hard.....Maybe it's how quickly i've been replaced? She was listening to some music in her room today....all "love" like songs...fucking eating me up...

Even tho my wife had made the move to suggest splitting...the relationship has been dead for so long. In the beggining it was good...all the way till we got married and she told me a little secret,...

So, the wife has decided she wants to split...as stated in my other Journal.  So its almost 2 AM..she walked in the door today after work at 7:30...and turned around and have been out ever since....

Awesome, so my wife told me this evening that she has been talking to another guy...and he "confessed" his love to her..and she thinks we should split because thats the way she wants to be treated...

Ahh how i love music. I love playing guitar. I love listening to other people play music! Theres a trend here eh?... I've been writting music for along time now, mostly on my own. Or with new...

My anger is getting out of control, I have no idea how to calm myself down. Were the fuck did this come from? my god.......... Its just getting worse  Sigh.

Another bullshit day. I am so confused with my symtoms, I know I am depressed, I know i have anxiety and a Panic Disorder. But still, every little movement out of the corner of my eye, every unknown...

Locked away, Thats what my head feels like these days.What happend to the laughs and enjoyment of life.Now all i do is wallow in self pitty and fear...fear for the worst. I dont hear them.I dont see...

Soo, My wife to be has requested that I write a ," short " journal.Because of the fact she will not let me name our Dog Bacon (then get another and name it egg's..I know I know, Genius) I wasn't...

It all started a year ago....just around this time. Emotionally I was in shambles, I was not in a good place. I was activly using Daily Strength to help me through my rough time....I received a...