Confidence

Or lack there of? I know things are going WELL for me right now...getting back in shape, eating better...controlling the drinking. I don't really dwell on my ex much anymore...today was very tough ..first birthday since the divorce and she texted me "hbd" Not even enough care to type it all out...sigh..anyway. But my confidence is shot right now...i met up with an old friend...crush i should say last sunday...was the most amazing time. She's just as amazing as i remember her to be but...even better!..lollll anyway..things went well...had alot to talk about and turns out alot in common! BUT...Im dying to ask her out...but i keep dreading the rejectiion that could come with it. You know i layed in bed last night and just thought of a few different moments from Sunday and i just smiled....got that weird feeling in my gut...and smiled like a doofus! I havent felt that in..a long long time. But i'm acctually terrified to ask this girl out to a movie!..lol...or for a drink or anyway...i've been keeping it friendly but talking to her and being around her as a friend just kills me. I need to make my move, a friendship wont really work....this is the reason i broke off ties with this woman after i met my future wife at the time...i tried to reconnect with her just to see if anything was still there and boy did i get a shock! I'm just rambling now...lol...anyway, point is its funny how being left can just destroy your confidence eh? Awesome.