guitarwes

Im not sure why i keep doing this to myself. My ex wife asked me to go to the mall with her yesterday....i agreed. It was Thanksgiving in Canada yesterday and as soon as i woke up...I just felt...

I havent really been on here as much in the recent weeks....Things are progressivly getting better for me. I am feeling generally better...Im going back to work next week.  So I was outside last...

I cannot belive the pain im in today. It' seriously feels like the seperation happend yesterday to me again....everything feels SO raw...so...painfull =/.. Finding it hard to focus tonight on...

I went to the casino tonight for the first time with my folks...good time...the building ate 120$ in about an hour...but it was fun =p. On the drive home i was thinking to myself how much BETTER i've...

I'm not sure why i keep wanting to write these journal's but everytime the night comes and i start thinkin...I always want to keep track of my emotions so i guess thats why i write them here. Guess i...

  So its September 9th, my STBX's birthday. I should have been up about 5 hours ago (around when i was going to bed -_-) making her her birthday breakfast. I should have woken her up for work this...

My STBX's birthday tomorrow, we'll...27 mins. I'm not looking forward to the feeling tomorrow is going to bring i know it. sigh. I texted my "friend" for the first time in about 2 weeks, got no...

It`s been more then a week since my `chick friend and i have spoken..and im not sure why. The impression i got the last time we were out together was she just wants to be friends. So the day after we...

I was up north at my friends boyfriend's cottage a few hours from home this long weekend. It was weird because the cottage smelled VERY similar to the place me and my STBX stayed when we lived in...

Wow.. Just sitting here...have been ignoring all my ex's attempts to talk...its been great. Untill a certain song came on my Comp... Dont Cry - Guns N Roses...This was our first song...first kissed...

In my hour of needHa [no] youre not thereAnd though I reached out for youWouldnt lend a hand.Through the darkest hourGrace did not shine on meIt feels so cold, very coldNo one cares for me.Did you...

So im in need a friend..pretty badly today. Unfortuantly i turned to my ex-wife. Because she was around. I cant do this to myself anymore...I cant keep pretending everything is fine between us. She...

Well i guess tonight wasnt all that bad. I went to hang out with my "friend" who im totally fuckin in love with, had a good time...was fun. Learned tonight that im a friend, and thats all ill be....

Havent had a day like this in awhile...which would probably mean im healing which is good. Feeling choked up all day, feels like the slightest thing is gonna just set me off...ugh. You know i...

last two weeks or so have been really tough.. I'm so confused and lost in a way. I' just do not know what to do.  Im pretty sure im hanging out with the girl of my dreams...someone that's just so...