KianaG2096
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- As life gets harder and i become more isolated, more shitty things keep happening its hard to be positive. I keep using more and more. Blowing hard earned money. I even did heroin for awhile because its cheaper and id do it again. ill do anything...
- I swear to god my life will become an award winning movie one day. So I was sitting here watching a show , bored, and it was about people trying to reunite with parents that gave them up and it started making me think about my dad. He left when i...
- Hey all, Apologies in advance if this is too long or if i swear because I suppose swearing is not proper or whatever,Anyway just an update.Since the assault, life, has been nothing but downhill. When i scream and cry and just want the pain to be...
- I just had this memory pop into my mind while quite emotional for no reason, most likely my ptsd or anxiety/depression. It was when I ran away from home around 14-15 maybe, it wasn't the first time. But this time my mother called the police and...
- I know no one probably gives a fuck but i am at the point where i may lose everything and i dont even care. If someone say one more stupid thing , looks at me wrong, does something to piss me off , im afraid of what i might do. Opiates , these pills...
- HI everyone its been awhile.As ive fallen deeper into addiction its been harder to bring myself to write or do much of anything healthy for that matter. But ive drawn alot , pain really does fuel some amazing art. Life imitates art tho doesnt it ? ...
- Not only things from the most recent assault but a lot from my past ones too. Its truly crazy how your mind pushes these memories, things that actually happened , in the back of your mind until you're ready to remember . The atmosphere of the room,...
- Okay so, about two years ago i had just moved into this old house with my boyfriend and it instantly gave me and everyone else the creeps. Goose-bump - hair raising , creeps. Everyone was scared to be alone and especially to go in the basement...
- I've had social anxiety since around the time of puberty, about 12. It started when i was assaulted while visiting my cousin just for the fun of it. Just for a laugh. Lets just say she doesnt live in the best neighborhood . I was assaulted ,...
- I just want to say thank you for all the support so far . All the kind words or even just hello's have truly made an impact in my life . I remember feeling drowned by negativity and pain, feeling lost and hopeless . I remember i was about to give...
- Hey there ! Its been a long day and getting late so not gunna write too much but along with my many other mental illnesses i have ptsd . Im kind of just trying to recognize my illness so far and my triggers. I used to ignore it and have panic...
- UGhhhh. With everything that has happened and everything going on , my many illnesses from countless traumatic experiences , my opiate addiction and everything else all wrapped up in one that is what my life is, i dont know how i do it i dont know...
- Could take the pain and sickness. Heres something i wrote in the comments of my last post i feel like sharing.peer support or just support in general can make a hell of a difference. I thought about going to rehab or something but i cant afford to...
- Its been almost three years since i have gotten back hooked on to opiates and anti anxiety meds. All the stress, pain and responsibilities i have were already wayy too much, i already felt like i was going to break. And then i had a re-traumatizing...
- First of all, I just want to give a big shout out and thank you to all that supported and comforted me on here when i was not mentally at my best. I received ZERO judgment and 100% support and AMAZING advice. I can feel the positive energy and im...