Hey there ! Its been a long day and getting late so not gunna write too much but along with my many other mental illnesses i have ptsd . Im kind of just trying to recognize my illness so far and my triggers. I used to ignore it and have panic attacks so bad i would pass out, hurt myself intentionally or unintentionally , become paranoid or very angry and unsafe feeling. Like that im-in-the-pitch-dark , dont-know-where- i- am , cant find a wall to put my back on kind of feeling, other times i go quiet and just kind of separate myself from reality , leave my body, 10 minuets later i come to and dont know how long ive been gone. One of my big triggers is when i feel unsafe, i start panicking , cant breathe , sweaty - i feel like running out of the room. I try breathing slow, big breathes and recognizing this is happening , closing my eyes . I dont like being put on the spot or feeling singled out. Especially dont like feeling victimized , even some one joking around with me . feeling abandoned , even by someone i just met . In intense situations i either fight, flight or go quiet and leave my body. But im very tired so this is all for now, talk to you all soon!