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So guess who isn't doing so well?At least vis-a-vis body image, anyway. I've been restricting more and more over the past two weeks - which I am seriously fucking enjoying. I don't think you...

Isn't it funny how you can fall back into old habits so easily? Three days of running and calisthenics and 'healthy eating' and I already feel much more like the me of three years ago. I'm enjoying...

Dear Kitty,       so, I have exciting news! Dad met someone at a dinner the other day who he knows quite well (she's the directing manager of a music company in Hong Kong). He'd mentioned me...

I think I might be genderqueer.I've been thinking about it for maybe six months now, and it kind of reminds me of when I first came out to myself as bi. Writing it down makes it more real, in a...

I don't know what it is - whether it's just me acting up, or if there's something wrong, or if I'm depressed, or if I'm just tired.But I'm scared. I'm scared of losing Dan - but, at the same time, I...

I guess a lot has changed since the last time I wrote. The play (28th and 29th) went fantastically well, and I wish we could do it all again. I went to Canal Street with the others afterwards, and...

So, nothing particular has happened lately.HOWEVERDan is cool with me auditioning for jobs in strip clubs! I'm gonna go for it with one of my friends, after another already got a job in one, so we're...

I've hardly thought about Hector at all recently. Weirdly, I don't know if I want to talk to him or not.Tomorrow, I'm planning on going out with my choir and getting very drunk indeed. Failing my...

I can't work out if I wish I were still at school or not.Janie helped me dye my hair on Monday - it was a snap decision on the way home with Alice, and I love it. It's a kind of dark red, and,...

I need to lose more weight.And I need help.But I need to lose more weight to be taken seriously enough to get help.

I've spent the last half hour crying.I'm scared, Kitty. All I want to do is talk to my dad, and I don't even know why. He's coming up a week on Wednesday, hopefully, to see me do the Allegri. In...

I weighed myself today, for the first time since Christmas.53kg.53kg.53 FUCKING KILOS.I'm really happy. I've been eating quite a lot lately, and for me to have lost weight (even if it's only half a...

Ugh, I feel like everything I do pisses Dan off at the moment.I wish Hector would text me back.

Adam, Michael, Antonia and I just got back from the shops. I took off my coat and got ready to start writing my aural presentation when Adam came over, hit me in the diaphragm (gently!). put his...

'Oh, I forgot - I played Dad your string quartet earlier and he was very impressed! He said it was very well written.''Well, one of the main aims of my life right now is to impress your dad.'I'm not...