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Still engaged.Running too much.Think my toenail is going to fall off.Had a concert yesterday.Can't tell the difference between 'on a diet' and 'restricting'.Am possibly having a depressive...

Isn't it funny how life always seems to come full circle?Essentially, one of my friends has fallen out with everyone because one of our other friends refused to go on a date with him about six months...

Hey, guess who's getting married?This is like six months late, but yeah! Gettin' married. Excited. Stressed. Mostly excited.

Me again, surprise surprise.Am I ok? I literally have no idea at all. I've messaged all the people I can for help but it's like nearly 5am so of couse I'm not gonna get a fucking answer.Dan is in...

Had a referral to the secondary mental health team because I hallucinated. Appt next week. Apparently I have 'emotional disregulation'.I'm frightened. I'm restricting, I'm regressing, I'm upset, I...

Usually I love Halloween. I love autumn and leaves and wind and coats and pumpkins and cold and mittens and all the other things to do with this time of year.So why am I suicidal?I'm on meds again,...

It's weird - I'm not really actively suicidal but, at the same time, I'm just not bothered about being alive.I hate myself. As a person in general. I'm irritating and loud and boorish and just too...

I guess it's been a while. A lot has changed since last time - I've moved, I'm back at uni, Dan and I live together still (with no Alice), I'm still insane.But I'm alright. I'm alright as I have ever...

I am going to cry.And then I am going to have a shower.And then I am going to delete Hector's phone number.And then I am going to get very drunk indeed. I need to stop hanging on to the past, and I...

I've dropped musical theatre dance in favour of cheerleading, which happens after my gym class on Monday's - leaving me with time to go to the gym on Tuesday night too. So busy! I love it.I'm fucking...

I am super busy right now! It's amazing!Tuesday: 7.45 - 8.30 - musical theatre danceWednesday: 7.30 - 9.30 - balletThursday: 7.30 - 8.30 - balletFriday: 7.30 - 8.30 - tapSaturday: 10.00 - 11.00 -...

I don't know how many other people in the country manage to lose weight over Christmas.I'm 49kg.My family says I'm too thin.Dan says I'm too thin.I'm at my lowest weight ever and yet I cried in a...

I feel like I'm getting a little too skinny. I keep getting bruises and grazes up my spine and it's not very comfortable. Saturday was my birthday and I spent a lot of it (and the days leading up to...

Finding out about a job within the next 48 hours, which is really stressing me out. I wanted to go for a run today, but I can't, in case they call me. Dan's in the bath, which is nice because we're...

Ugh. Just ugh.I hate this. I hate arguing with Dan all the time. I hate feeling like I need to ask people for help, and I hate how my life revolves around food and eating and not eating. I hate...