alantm
Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost
Mood:
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so plan right now is talk my self out of cutting my self why do i want to?i have an awfull feeling a feeling like i want to split in to and i am so out of line with life im not ment to be herejust...
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i hate my work making things for people.its even harder now that i feel im needing im giving my self to people .im getting nothing i spent money today ,i tryed to make my self feel better but it...
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things are very dead i feel like im crawling in my skin again.im trying to get out of me or here i cant get out .im trapped like a rat that has ran around the walls so many times i have stopped i...
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4 days shes been in the ukand hasnt called me all the old phone numbers are dead she hant called someone said ring her brother for a number i say noshe has my number im not going to ring around...
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ill but getting better..nothing from the girlstartting to feel more alone i dont have a number ,email or address now
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tonights new year was not as pain full as many i have hadwhybecause ive done it to much its the same as always just im used to it in fact the last 7 new years years ive been by myself even though...
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nothing from turkish girlment to be here either tomorrow or day after
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had a bad night im ill so the dreams im having are really crazy its not dreams really its repeated actionsor sortingits awfull so my ex girl as it now seems hasnt said a word it feels like when you...
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been on this site nearly 9 months i was a lot differnt in mood back then.i guess i was very illi spend my life alone but when i do deal with someone they swamp me and take myself away then they are...
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ive not been this ill in years did nothing today and very dizzy i got sent this""whats the matter with you??? You've been really pessimistic and not your normal self????""" ive given up trying...
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lots of things going very wrong in every part of my life .its all falling downdont know how to rebuild it i never was very good by myself and the more i get like this the more isolated i...
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the awful trapped feeling is coming backthe voice inside that says go on cut yourself its all fucked up anyway who cares you have failed anyway then the grown up voice says no
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I got locked out of here over xmass ive been alone a stupid sign in problem so ive sat by myself and had to deal with it this xmass was lonley i was even cut off from the one place i have to...
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that was today yesterday was awfultoday was a joke while listening to her i didnt say anything its aways like that i know when its point less to say something .if they had any real in tent they...
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this is an awful xmass i cant type how ifeel here anywords i put will not explain it imsick of life fucking me over
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