tonights new year was not as pain full as many i have hadwhybecause ive done it to much its the same as always just im used to it  in fact the last 7 new years years ive been by myself even though ive been datting ???? for 4 years normaly i sit and whach couples dancing and kissing the new year in  this year i saw them all but they were just like trees to me i tend to see people like that like objects that ocupie spaces  they could be chairs for all they are to me they have no emotional value so they are  a thing   new year as you get older the new year is a bad thingits just more time slipping awaylest time to make it better   just rembered last new year she didnt call me and in the end when i got though to hershe was out down town drinking with a guy till 4am makes you feel really special dosnt it