what next? Does anyone know?

what next about greiving? Does anyone know? Does anyone have got any help or suggestions? I dont know what to do next.I am out of work and i still plug away almost everyday.I have put in 8 applications on line.But when it comes to Brad...I have found out that I was the victim of a deception.Brad was seeing someone else and I found some of his e mails.When I found them,i screamed why? Why was he doing this to me? I brought all of the food,got the cat food and fed the cats.I brought in the mail and did the things that a good roommate should.I did everything and helped him out with the money.So why did he do it? Why do men have affairs? Is it because they are men? Why did Tiger Wood cheat with 15 women? SHe is beautiful and he has got a nice family.Why? Why is this being condoned? Can anyone help me now?