my love story with brad-brads story

Brad will be dead for one year on May 22nd.And it has been a tough year for me because
i am finding out stuff about him that has broken my heart.He wasnt the nice guy that I
pretended that he was.He had a lot of problems.He owed a great deal of money out and
simply cant pay it.He was all i had and i miss him.I miss his arms.They were huge and he when he was sober used to hug me.I miss the way he called me honey.I miss the way that he fed the cats and fed the racoons.I miss the way that he fed the birds.I miss the way that he drove the car and i miss the way that he played with his com puter.all of the hard drives his nephew went thru and there wasnt anything dirty on it.They were mostly
games and such.He was playing Resident Evil.Does anyone know that meaning of Resident Evil? And what does the Terminator mean? What is Grand Theft Auto? Did it teach Brad to
steal? What do these games do? Does anyone know who Phoebe is? All I know is that she is a character in the games.What is the signifenice of these games? What do they mean? Can anyone explain to me? Can these games make a person committ suicide? PLease help me.He left the games to me.What shall I do with them? Does anyone have any answers?