debbyneeley

Hi,  it's been a long time since I have been on DS.  I went back to work at the clinic  that I was working at before Johnny passed away.  They are very strict there so I can get online at...

Good MorningIt's Monday morning and my Johnny has been for for 21 weeks.  It's seems a lifetime, and it seems like yesterday.  So far I've made it through his first birthday in heaven, his first...

Dear JohnnyThis is your first Christmas in heaven and my first in eight years without you.  There’s not a present under the tree for you or one from you to me.  So I wanted to wish you Merry...

The Grief MonsterAnd so, the grief monster awakens.  At almost twenty weeks he's been playing hide and seek with me.I'm learning how to ward him off.Today he woke up with a vengeance!  Why?Because...

Woke up this morning very tired. This journey is probably the hardest I've ever been on. Being tired is my biggest fear, for that is when the monster of grief awakens. This journey is not about how...

Hello EveryoneAs the last few minutes wind down from our day at work I just wanted to wish you all a good day tomorrow.  I know it will be hard for most of us, but we will get through, (without...

I found this one too on Pinetrest.  I know right now I'm not here yet, but one day I hope to find myself again.I found myself again one morning when I opened the window and smelled the fresh daisies...

Found this on Pintrest, hope y'all like it.Many times I thought it was the end of my world,but as time goes on I think youlearn to accept things.And here I am at it again,creating a whole new world...

Ok I have two things to talk about today and I really need your input.  1)  Is anyone else getting friends request from men with no previous post, no bio, no anything?  This is twice for me and...

The other day I posted about who I used to be, I've had some things happen in the last few days that really got me to thinking.  As I posted on my bio, I love to write.  So I wrote the following....

I looked at the calendar today, and I realized that in 11 days Johnny will have been gone for 3 months.  It doesn't help that yesterday my son and daughter in law celebrated their 4th anniversary...

WHO I AM How do you merge who you used to be, with who you are now?How do you get past the pain, of never seeing him again, never feeling his touch, or have him there when the little things happen in...

No Fear No RegretsIt's been almost ten weeks since my wonderful Johnny has passed away. In this time, I've cried buckets, laughed hard, and learned to remember all the things that he taught me. I...

So this week was 6 weeks for me, on Tuesday, on my way to Dallas to help my friend get her dad to the bus station I hit a deer with my car.  By God's grace and mercy we are safe, I rented a car so...

I just wanted to say how much I truly am blessed to have found this place.  You and your journals give me hope and inspiration daily.  Since we are all on the same journey each of us has a...