MMP1

Reading books is the only respite in addition to DBSA that I get.

Had to get off the Welbutrin cuz of severe heartburn.I've gained 40 pounds on Depakote.The Depression is horribly painful - only respite I get is when I go to the DBSA meetings on Thursday nights.I...

Got a med check from the pdoc - he added Welbutrin to my cocktal and I think it's working.  Still having trouble with memory and concentration. Worked in the yard some - lots of weeds to tackle.

The antidepressant that my doc gave me is working some.  He started me on 100mg of wellbutrin and in two weeks he is going to up it to 200mg - as long as I havent gone manic. Problem is that I...

Not much to report - the kittens are both in my lap right now making it hard to type.  Their names are Eddie and Tabitha.  Eddie is a real lover and Tabitha is more of a snoot.   I almost let my...

Not much to report since last journal entry except I turned 44 on 1/25.  Had my b'day dinner with my dad, Carolyn, brother and Victor on Monday.  My brother gave me a bday card that gave me a good...

Decided to force myself out of the house once a day.I've been going to the grocery store and making dinner everyday this week.T onight I'll eat out cuz I've got the BPSA meeting to go to - it was...

I got two kittens hoping it would lift my depression - it hasn't.My memory is still not working - read a novel and only understood about 50% of it.Everything I do takes enormous effort.I can only...

Feeling blue today.  Anxiety too.  I hate this illness.  When am I going to feel "good" again?  I hardly ever laugh anymore and I use to laugh all the time - I could find something funny in any...

Went to the BP support group last night - it wasn't very good which was a huge disappointment.  I think I need to find a therapist again.  I think I need to get on some type of...

Had another panic attack when I woked up yesterday.  Tried to shake it off but I ended up just taking a klonopin.   Put tarps around the houseboat to try and keep the water out.  The boat has...

Got home yesterday evening and picked up my car from the auto shop.  Stayed at Victor's last night and woke up with a massive panic attack.  I took a klonopin and called Victor - he was at an...

Went to bed around 11pm last night and woke up around 10am.  Panic attacks in the morning are getting worse - having to take more klonopin than before. Played a game called "Taboo" - it was fun and...

Went to bed around 11:30 and woke up at 10:30am.Getting heartburn daily.  Headaches are a problem.  Feet continuously feel stiff. Went to the Dallas arboretum (spelling) - interesting. 

Been staying at my brother's house the last few days (near Dallas).Anxiety attacks in morning's are bad but they dissipate (with a pill). Saw mom yesterday and all of us went looking at xmas lights...