General Update

Got home yesterday evening and picked up my car from the auto shop.  Stayed at Victor's last night and woke up with a massive panic attack.  I took a klonopin and called Victor - he was at an auction near Beaumont. Felt a little better once Victor got home.  Went and ate at IHOP, Victor just got coffee.  After eating I took a nap and felt a little better. I wish I had my cat Jumbo - it tears my heart out.  I want another cat but I don't think Victor is ready fo one - he misses Jumbo too. Victor finally got hungry so I drove him to Subway.  I got milk and cookies (I really need to watch my weight cuz the Depakote is putting the pounds on me. Need to do something fun - but nothing seems fun with this depression.  Playing Taboo at my brothers house was fun.  Playing Pictionary over Thanksgiving at Dad's was fun.  Games get my concentration back somewhat. I watered the petunias and did dishes.  House needs to be vacuumed but I don't feel like it.  I just don't feel like doing anything. Plan on signing a Hold Harmless with Victor next Friday so I can move back permanently.  Anxious about trying to get all my stuff out of storage.  Everything is so disorganized - house, garage, etc.  Things are just piled everywhere. Need to sign up for Direct TV - especially since I'll be alone alot and regular tv is going away in February.