MMP1

Well I haven't been on here in a while.  No real change. Sometimes I sleep 24 hours.  Sometimes I stay up 24 hours.Dad Died August last year.I adopted a couple of cats so now I don't think of...

Still no real change in routine.  Sleep till 4 or 5pm and stay up till 4 or 5 am.  Stay inside watching TV during the waking hours unless I have to see my probation officer or go to the grocery...

Okay, I've been gone since 2009.  A lot has happened.  I lived with depression but was slowly trying to get back into life again.  I had found some relief and hope in volunteering at a local food...

Reading books is the only respite in addition to DBSA that I get.

Had to get off the Welbutrin cuz of severe heartburn.I've gained 40 pounds on Depakote.The Depression is horribly painful - only respite I get is when I go to the DBSA meetings on Thursday nights.I...

Got a med check from the pdoc - he added Welbutrin to my cocktal and I think it's working.  Still having trouble with memory and concentration. Worked in the yard some - lots of weeds to tackle.

The antidepressant that my doc gave me is working some.  He started me on 100mg of wellbutrin and in two weeks he is going to up it to 200mg - as long as I havent gone manic. Problem is that I...

Not much to report - the kittens are both in my lap right now making it hard to type.  Their names are Eddie and Tabitha.  Eddie is a real lover and Tabitha is more of a snoot.   I almost let my...

Not much to report since last journal entry except I turned 44 on 1/25.  Had my b'day dinner with my dad, Carolyn, brother and Victor on Monday.  My brother gave me a bday card that gave me a good...

Decided to force myself out of the house once a day.I've been going to the grocery store and making dinner everyday this week.T onight I'll eat out cuz I've got the BPSA meeting to go to - it was...

I got two kittens hoping it would lift my depression - it hasn't.My memory is still not working - read a novel and only understood about 50% of it.Everything I do takes enormous effort.I can only...

Feeling blue today.  Anxiety too.  I hate this illness.  When am I going to feel "good" again?  I hardly ever laugh anymore and I use to laugh all the time - I could find something funny in any...

Went to the BP support group last night - it wasn't very good which was a huge disappointment.  I think I need to find a therapist again.  I think I need to get on some type of...

Had another panic attack when I woked up yesterday.  Tried to shake it off but I ended up just taking a klonopin.   Put tarps around the houseboat to try and keep the water out.  The boat has...

Got home yesterday evening and picked up my car from the auto shop.  Stayed at Victor's last night and woke up with a massive panic attack.  I took a klonopin and called Victor - he was at an...