MMP1

Xmas went okay.  Mostly helped Carolyn with the cooking and decorating - had trouble even comprehending recipes.Mood is still flat.Managed to get my car in the shop to repair the damage the neighbor...

I can't stand being alone at all, wish I could hire a baby sitter. Also can't manage any stress.  Neighbor accidently bumped into my car and I'm having to have other people help talk to him cuz I...

Accidentally overmedicated on klonopin the other day - NOT GOOD.  Turns out I was suppose to cut the pill in HALF.  Worse drunken feeling I've ever had. One bit of bright news.  I went to a...

Volunteering at thrift store was "so-so".Concentration still not too good.Driving skills worsened since pdoc up'ed my dosage.  Dad, Victor and I are going to talk to pdoc about getting me back on...

My driving skills and reading comprehension are marginal - I guess this is part of the illness.  Absolutely can't/shouldn't drive at night.  Spent the weekend at Victor's.Went to church. Watched...

Not much to report.  I'm sleeping 12-14 hours a day.  Feel like I'm still in jail solitary cuz noone is around the house much.  Dad and Carolyn spend most the week at their other house in the...

I haven't written in my journal since I went psychotic in April/May.Not much to say.Victor dropped me off at Dad's house about 5 am after I spent the weekend with him.Went back to sleep until...

My cat Jumbo died while I was in jail in July - favorite pet I ever had.My husband moved all of my stuff into storage while I was in jail.I have nightmares every night and never feel rested when I...

I've been very very sick for 6 months now. I ended up going manic with severe psychosis back in April. I landed myself in jail in May for 2 months and then the state psychiatric hopsital for 2...

I just got through watching the DVD called National Security....and it describes my day exactly (in a worldy way) and Russell and Marjies day exactly (in a spiritual/dream way). It'll make you laugh...

 Below is a letter I just sent to a DS friend/sister/mom/teacher.  She is an ANGEL.... anyways...one chinese man died this morning at the hospital...one chinese man lived because the spirit...

Jumbo woke me up at 3am licking my face.  The demons attacked from 3am to 4:30pm.   Wow - what a day.  I can't even put it all into words.   I felt like I was playing racquetball with all the...

wow - that was a quick call back.  She just phoned home and her son just now got released from jail.  They're on their way back home now. For an old crazy black lady - she "hears" pretty...

 Woke up and watched a beautiful sunrise while I planted flowers in Dr Sutherland's office flower beds - he really needs color around his office.  The front of his office faces east and the back...

  Hello friends,Margie and I lazed around this morning. It's was a BEAUTIFUL SOFT DAY.  Bob came over so I could take him out for his belated b'day lunch and a little shopping at Discount Books. I...