shelbyalright
Status: I smile on the outside but on the inside I am screaming.....
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- Well I let him get to me. I took one last final chance in trying to get him to see that he is needing help. The past 24 hours have been nothing but hell with one email after another. Only to have ended as every argument we ever had was. In my pain...
- My X now claims that he isn't BP. That he is GAD. I am not sure if he is just in denial or if he is more than just BP? I don't deny he could have GAD. His childhood was pretty awful. He also claims to have depression. That I believe as he has...
- I've been anxious most of the day which made me feel vulnerable most of the day. When this happens I often search for reason I should be feeling this way when in fact it often is just a warning from god to be prepared for my X to cause chaos in my...
- I have done a lot of work on myself. Left a bad relationship, dealing with the changes I am making as a person and trying to become a better mother to my children. Two of my children are grown and on their own now with very little complaints to me...
- I had a meeting with my child's councilor today. She is diagnosing him with Anxiety Disorder. I am feeling pretty helpless at the moment. I immediately thought to myself, If I cant control my anxiety how the heck am I going to help him control or...
- A little history. I have a spouse who has two children. A 17 year old daughter and a soon to be 15 year old son. Both my spouse and I come from abusive relationships. So we understand each others pain.His X is verbally and emotionally abusive. She...
- One thing I do know about myself is that my anxiety brings on my OCD tendencies. I spent all day cleaning, painting, organizing. All because I am super anxious about how my X is going to be when he find out that I have claimed our child on my taxes...
- I was diagnosed with arthritis at a really young age. Because I have had the same doctor for some time and she knows my family we have a pretty good relationship. My family suffers from degenerate bones disease in our genetics. My uncle suffers...
- I guess there's a good reason why nobody wants to comment on my posts? Maybe because there is never any positive to why I post? I cant help that my experience with BP is so negative. I am not sure what else to say. So I am asking you.....??
- I don't want to hold such animosity towards the one who causes us so much agony, but how often do you just let things slide, how many times must your feeling...the feeling of your child come second. I can't keep doing this because its making me sick...
- When your anxiety tales over how do you cope with it?
- For so many years I have dealt with this man. I got stronger and I learned how to deal with all his mean and hateful ways he deals with life. I spent 15 years trying to help him cope, as maybe a councilor would ... Mind you I am no professional. But...
- I don't like the person he makes me when he verbally attacks me, drags me down. When he makes me be the villain only so he can be the victim. I know they are only words. And I know he's sick with his mental stability.... But so many years I have...
- My anxiety has gotten so bad the last couple of days that I cant keep any food down. All weekend due to the stress my X caused I had no want to eat. By Monday I could feel I needed to eat. But every time I tried I had to be sick. The lack of...
- I know the saying. I have heard it so much and I have done so much studies to help cope. But this weekend pushed me over the edge of hot caring anymore about the difference between the disease and the person. My X suffers from BP. And his life time...