Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Well I let him get to me. I took one last final chance in trying to get him to see that he is needing help. The past 24 hours have been nothing but hell with one email after another. Only to have ended as every argument we ever had was. In my pain and his denial. Its my last efforts to ever get him to wake up. Our child is going to be 9 this month and soon enough that innocent child will have to see dads true colors. When that happens I will be there as I always am. I will no longer spend anymore time on that man. The only efforts I have left when concerns him is to seek all I want in front of a judge. If anything all those emails will be more evidence.
I have to say that a super small piece of me still had some hope. Hope that one day he would realize that being mean and ugly to people is no way to live. But 15 years trying to convince him should've told me different.
Now I go with peace in my heart that I have exhausted all hopes to ever makes peace for my child.
Today I take a deep breath and move on to my next task. The lord is with me and gives me strength. I trust in my efforts and I can now never look back.
Sometimes I wish my heart wasn't so big. That I could shut off the guilt that I force on myself to think that I should spend time on meaningless issues.
I am learning......
I have to say that a super small piece of me still had some hope. Hope that one day he would realize that being mean and ugly to people is no way to live. But 15 years trying to convince him should've told me different.
Now I go with peace in my heart that I have exhausted all hopes to ever makes peace for my child.
Today I take a deep breath and move on to my next task. The lord is with me and gives me strength. I trust in my efforts and I can now never look back.
Sometimes I wish my heart wasn't so big. That I could shut off the guilt that I force on myself to think that I should spend time on meaningless issues.
I am learning......
Each member of my family, myself included, had to get to this point with my brother. My Mother has had the most difficult time "giving up" on him. Which is very understandable because she loves her son and wants the best for him. But he is destructive to himself and to others and even my mother has reached her tipping point. He is now on his own and we all understand that he has to WANT a better life for himself. If he doesn't then we must assume he likes living in poverty and drunkenness.
Take care
Thank you for the caring words :0)