Alphonsus

I lost almost another pound overnight.  I suspect that this is just water loss, though.

Well, the worst is over now.  I feel human again.  Back in DS bigtime and back in my game.  I think I'm still going to take one more day off from work just so I don't get weird and colapse or any...

Well, if this flu was good for nothing else, it did help me lose close to two pounds.  It is not a weight loss method I would recommend, however.

Still feverish.  Wife is trying to be good, but she's still talking to much.  God, don't let it get to the point where just the sound of her voice stresses me out.  I love her.  Stressed. ...

Ok, this is the third day of this flu and it's starting to get boring.  I'm wasting a perfectly good weekend laying on the couch under 10 pounds of blankets. I wonder about people who have long...

I don't always have the strength to help others.  But what is so great about DS is that there usually are at least several other people online who can.  I feel like I can jump in, put in my two...

Stbx and I have a mediator now.  We're trying to reach an agreement without having to have separate lawyers and going through the entire battle at each other's throat thing.  So far things look...

She doesn't want to be married to me, anymore.  After all the struggle, this is finally, irretrievably, irrevocably, the end.She just told me tonight.  I don't know how I'm reacting to it yet.I'm...

I guess you really can't go home again.I can't make myself even remotely resemble the person I used to be in DS.  I don't have the courage or the self-confidence to help people like I once did....

Where am I right now?  I'm not sure.  I'm in a very indecisive place .  I'm spiraling out of control in some ways.  I feel like I have no foundation.  Nothing solid to believe in.  No self...

My wife is back.Kinda.She left her boyfriend due primarily to living conditions.  She still loves him.I've taken her back in.  She sleeps downstairs while I sleep upstairs.I guess the difficult...

Is it wrong to want my old life back?Is it wrong to want my wife back?The possibility exists, but a lot depends on how much I choose to make it happen.  She's made my life hell in some ways.  In...

Back to work today.  Whoopee.

I called in sick again today.  I spent most of the day sleeping.  I think I needed it.  I don't really know.I've been here today off and on.  I read the posts from people in deep states of...

I called in sick to work today.  I said that I had stomach flu, but in reality I spent most of the night dinking on the computer and drinking a 2 liter of Mountain Dew right out of the bottle (such...