Another day in my life.

Alphonsus Log: Stardate 1304.5 My work day started out well, but then the same old confusion feelings began to take over again.  By the time I was finished with my afternoon meeting my brain was too scrambled to focus anymore. Sigh. So, how do I feel being off the meds?  Almost exactly the same.  Yes, I have a little more tension and anxiety after droping the Klonopin, but I notice no change, NONE, from going off the Prozak.  It is still early, but I have to say that I've never really felt any change as the result of any of the medications I've taken except for the Klonopin.  I might as well be taking M&Ms as far as everything else is concerned. I did manage to sleep for close to 10 hours last night (I ended up taking half a Klonopin to help me go back to sleep at about 1:30).  I still had moments when I felt like sleeping at work.  WTF!  I've been getting tons of sleep, and I'm not on any meds to knock me out anymore. Oh well. I had one beer tonight, and I'm feeling very sleepy right now.  The wife is showing signs of anxiety that she hasn't shown for a while.  Reality still has a kind of unreal feel for me.  I'm not strongly grounded. I used to have an "I can do anything" philosophy.  I never lost.  But then I did lose...I lost big.  And I don't know what to lean on anymore now that that philosophy is broken. Well, I'm hanging in there for now.  Goodnight all.  Sweet dreams. Alphonsus