RockNMetalChic
Status: Being left behind by life, dying more inside everyday
Mood:
Horrible
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- of course i'm talking about depression and lonliness, they are always surrounding me and my life, its like i'm meant to be always down and alone.......... i can't take anymore alone time... i'm sick of me , i want some two on two time- that didn't...
- i have confessed my sins in cheaters anonymous- and somehow this makes me feel a lot better about myself and makes me feel i can breathe- i know that after reading it most if not all my friends on here will probably desert me and never speak to me...
- the last year and a half has been nothing short of an emotional roller coaster ride for me- i have no idea why i'm telling u all this- i just feel i need to confess and i have no therapist to talk to - so might as well take my chances getting told...
- he left me and went back to her and i just have to wonder she put up with this 28 times- how many more times will she let him cheat on her before she finally either kills him or divorces him... i was at fault in this i realize- whats really strange...
- i am currently with a man whom i love with all my heart- he is going through his second divorce and having a pretty hard time dealing with his emotions and missing his ex- i am doing all i can to let him talk and i listen ... to try and help him...
- Monday, December 22, 2008 Guess u will all be happy to know how screwed up my life is right now.......i am in love with a man named Matt.... he used to tell me that he loved me too.... i stood by his side through everything and now i'm living in his...
- ok so yesterday my friend and i walk to the store in the snow and freezing winds in indiana... we get there and we shop and all that good stuff and on the way outside- we see this woman and man sitting on a bench- and they start talkn to us and...
- i've made a real mess of my life this year- i joined this site to help me get over an ex and a bad expierence... but instead i just headed right back into the same bad situation with him over and over and over- and its cost me , my family, most of...
- well its been awhile since i've been online and on this site- seeing as for the last 2 months i've been living with matt ..... had a job at walmart- remodeling the store... and that was awesome... but i couldnt take it and so i left him and i am now...
- Ok so i admit it- i had an online romance with a ds member ( i won't mention names.) but he seemed like a really cool guy- his name was Joey and he and i really clicked online personality wise... so then we talked about meeting - one night he called...
- ok so it started last weekend- when i looked through my moms stuff and discovered the last entry she ever made on the last calendar she ever owned was my Fiancee (Andy's Bday) she had put a big heart around it and its coming up soon- June 3rd......
- I lost my fiancee who i had been with for 3 years in December 2006 ... he was my best friend, my lover, the man i saw me spending the rest of my life with... and i thought i was pretty much dealing with him being gone ok ..... last weekend i was...
- ok so i know i am probably just freaking out for nothing - but i am afraid i might be the big "P" Word.. i don't wanna say it - cause if i don't say it- then it can't be so right... yeah i'm gonna go with that... but my boobs have been hurting for...
- Is it that when u don't call ur friends when they think u should- that ur ignoring them- is it too much to have bad days when u don't want to talk and to avoid all phone calls ! but no- u must be ignoring that one person right- cause there is no way...
- My sister is really really making it hard to live with her! i am trying hard to get along with her and my bro in law and not make any waves- but for god's sake! i was like ok i'm applying for night shifts and she says- u can't cause then u get off...