the last year and a half has been nothing short of an emotional roller coaster ride for me- i have no idea why i'm telling u all this- i just feel i need to confess and i have no therapist to talk to - so might as well take my chances getting told off and take a deep breath and let it all out... i had an affair with a married man- and his wife knew about it- so she suggested that rather than any of us leave this broken hearted and alone that we all move in together- and we did- june 2008 i did something i never thought i'd do in my life- i moved in with my lover and his wife! we all became lovers and friends and she made a schedule- he had me for 3 days and then her for 3 days and on those days- the woman who was the "chosen one" was to do all the house hold chores and cook and take care of the man- and he was to see that her every desire was taken care of- so this lasted about a month-she had a bedroom and i had a bedroom and he came to the room to stay on ur nights- the other nights he came and told u he loved u and hugged and kissed and closed the door - kinda like a polygamist colony ... and she couldn't have kids- so i was there to have a baby which we were all going to raise together- wel i got a job- which made her mad cause she wanted to stay at home and i should want to stay home and eat bon bons and watch soaps all day too.... and then after a month and me not getting pregnant- she told him to get rid of me or she would - so i was shipped off...... she called me and wanted to try it again and so this time it lasted 2 months.... finally it stopped- i lost 2 jobs because of this foolishness and thats exactly what it was on all 3 sides- i believe the way it should've went down was- she should've kicked my butt the moment she saw me...... and then he should've said don't ever come back and i should've been so scared out of my mind that i wouldn't even consider it- but instead we sat in bed together and watched cmt and gac videos together and talked about our lives and she called me her best friend and then asked to makeout with me- which in her defense- wasn't half bad.... so now i am all alone- and sad to say- i miss them both alittle - i miss him as a lover- and her as a friend........ anyways , let me have it or whatever but its off my chest and i can breathe now!
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