of course i'm talking about depression and lonliness, they are always surrounding me and my life, its like i'm meant to be always down and alone.......... i can't take anymore alone time... i'm sick of me , i want some two on two time- that didn't sound right- but u know what i mean ... i miss having someone to talk to and hold hands and walk down the street...... i miss companionship, why don't i get a dog? well i have no money to take care of me and so why would i want to put a animal through that.... i'm so depressed today .... sat up lastnight and watched a hallmark movie called a stranger's heart, loved and hated it- loved it cause the ending was so happy, hated it cause it made me cry and then i felt like a dork cause here i was all alone with my strawberry poptarts eating and crying and going omg they have to live through the heart transplants and they have to be together and then crying cause i want someone like that- who will want to come over just to spend time with me and not expect sex ..... nobody will ever accept me for me and want me- i'm just not good enough... i find myself in tears a lot most days at some point- its a sad place to be- takes a toll on u emotionally- i am drained- take me out and beat me- i don't care anymore..... i'm just so tired..........