Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Wednesday.....day 57 GF....I'm looking forward to the 60 day milestone......I still think of gambling at least fleetingly every day.....today one of my employees decided to tell me all about her fun fun fun trip to the casino, what machines she played, etc....It made me feel a little tempted, but nothing I can't handle.   My employees all know I liked to go to casinos, but they don't know the extent of the issue, as I have paid my business bills, payroll, etc. on time...it is a relief not to have to hide my gambling problem from them as well as everybody else!   Yesterday I was able to make a good size payment to the IRS and called them to "check in."  I am grateful business has been good recently, and I am on track to get out of trouble....I don't know what kind of insanity I was living in, not making my estimated payments.....getting further and further behind.....instead I was paying the casino.....I am grateful today for "waking up".  I am grateful to have the energy and opportunity to work hard to repair the damage I have done....I am grateful for the people on this site who read and comment on my journals.   It helps so much to feel I am not alone, there are people who understand and do not condemn me, people who care enough to take their precious time to support me.   Thanks and much love to everyone on this site.....