Thursday morning.....still hanging in there....each day that passes, I am closer to my goal of getting out of trouble with the IRS....made another payment this week....the end is in sight.....well, not the end, exactly, but the deadline approaches, and I do have the possibility of actually meeting it....I am thankful, so thankful.  I am tired, but it is worth it.   It makes me realize how much I have wasted in the self-destruction of addiction.  I was even more tired when I was staying up until 4 or 5 AM several nights a week gambling, and dragging myself in to work...at least now, I am tired because of working toward something worthwhile  (saving myself!)....I am not only saving myself, but saving my friends and family from having to deal with whatever was left over after gambling....I'm saving myself and those I love from the lies, deceit, and secrecy of that life.....It is all so worth it.....I want to be able to have something left over that I can actually contribute to those I love, and maybe, then....to other people I might not even know, that could need my help....I used to buy McDonald's gift cards and hand them to people begging on street corners....even small things like that didn't happen much when I was gambling....of course, donating my time wasn't an option, either, because gambling devoured everything....life isn't just about me, it is also about what kind of impact I can have on others as well...Funny how that gets put to the side when in the thrall of addiction.....Love to everyone here, thanks so much for the support that has been making my recovery possible.....xoxoxoxoxoxo   Dianne