HazyBo

He is gone. But at least he is at peace now : )

Stayed for just half an hour if even that. I couldn't bare seeing him like that. HE was in soo much pain, I could see he was trying not to let out any cries but every now and then he would complain...

Was at the hosp tonight. Nout much changed. Except that they have decided to stop the treatment, now he is only on oxygen to help him breathe and morphine to take the pain away from his legs. I feel...

I phoned my boss earlier I had to know that she understood fully what was going on. I was totally shocked and appalled at her pulling me up like that and basically thinking I was pulling a fly...

Nice one. I got pulled up from work today by the manager and one of the other workers. Discussing what happened on Friday. I was classed as having an "unauthorised absence" big fatty said she was...

BLEH, the doctors were right in telling us not to get our hopes up. Mums just back from my grans and told me hes worse than he was yesterday and hadn't spoke at all, just lay there sleeping. He's...

Haven't really heard much about my grandad today. He is very much the same as he was yesterday mum was saying. Only difference is, today he is very sleepy. I wanted to go and see him but I decided I...

Grandpa is on morphine now to take away the pain from his legs. It was so good to see him today, he was very much alert and is still not confused. However he was hallucinating earlier because of the...

I can't believe it. Mum just texted saying that my grandpa has been eating his breakfast and chatting away and looking a little better! AND they are going to continue the treatment!! I CANNOT BELIEVE...

I'm so scared of what might happen overnight :( Tomorrow morning mum and gran are going to the hospital to discuss with the doctor what is happening and if anything has occured tonight. Should...

My grandpa is still in hospital and this time it doesn't look like he is coming back, alive :( Mum and gran got a phone call this morning at about half 8ish to say that his condition had deteriorated...

Seriously getting pissed off with work ¬_¬  I was supposed to be backshift tomorrow at HP but now they've asked me to do a few hours extra and firstly go to one of our clients houses then to HP....

Feel a bit better today. I wasn't working in the residential home I was over at a clients house. That always makes me feel better. I guess I am just not enjoying my job at all anymore. I knew I...

I'm such a fucking arsehole I don't want to be here. All I ever do is fuck up peoples lives and hurt people.

Still not feeling greaaaaaat =/ I don't really know whats wrong with me. Like tonight Dave kept going on at me asking me to go out and do something. But to be honest all I want to do is stay in on my...