Haven't really heard much about my grandad today. He is very much the same as he was yesterday mum was saying. Only difference is, today he is very sleepy. I wanted to go and see him but I decided I would go tomorrow after work. It breaks my heart to see him like that and to know that he is not coming back. I want to see him as much as I possibly can, maybe I should have went tonight. I just wish he was getting better to come home. Dad told me he was talking to my mum and asked "is this it" maybe he knows :( I just don't want him to go. But what is he clinging onto by being here every day now :( its not an existence. He is not suffering any pain as of yet, he is not confused or anything either, he's just really tired. What do you do, let nature run its course? Keep him on the treatment? I really don't know :( I mean I do not want him to go, but I want him to be at peace. I just want him to stay with us a few more days for my mum and grans sakes. I wish he could have even more time and be able to come home, I really do. But we all know that is not going to happen :( the truth is so hard to face. Counting down the days :(