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- I made it to one week. I haven't gambled since March 28th,2016. It was no problem till Monday came around. You see I usually would go to the casinos on my days off which are Sunday and Monday. The thought of going to the casino seemed enticing to me...
- This addiction is the worst. I've been dealing with this several years. Did really good for awhile. Was clean for a whole year. That was about 3 years ago. And then went back to a casino with a friend because I thought I could just be normal and...
- Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Used an excuse this weekend of dealing with the mountains of bills that I have. So I let the disease take over and went to the casino. Played on and Sunday and Monday. Slots is my addiction. Found...
- Last Monday I was knocking on the door of being gambling free for 98 days. I made the decision of going to a casino with a friend of mine. I admit that I am a compulsive gambler and am powerless over the disease. Knowing that and my struggles I...
- 90 days today for me and I still have the desire to run away and go to the casino. The urge is very strong today. I've had more stress in my life recently and the bills are stacked on my desk in front of me. Not happy. I know I'm not going to a...
- This morning I remembered my dream. I was in a casino that I used to frequent and my Father whom passed away years ago was in the dream at the casino with me. When he was alive we never went to the casino together. I had a roll full of quarters and...
- Today marks 60 days clean for me. It has been a real challenge but I am so afraid of the alternative. I am a compulsive gambler and I know that if I go back I will be powerless over gambling. It took me a long time to really understand that sentence...
- I still have a friend that I used to go to the casino with. I am friends with her on Facebook. Awhile back I had told her I could no longer go to the casino with her and that I was a compulsive gambler. She understood and we would do other things...
- I'm 45 days free of gambling as of today. But I started having dreams of being in the casino and gambling. The pull to go to the casino was getting stronger each day. This morning when I woke I immediately thought of going this weekend. I had...
- What a difference 30 days have made in my life. I am no longer feeling weak. The draw to go to a casino is not pulling me in that direction. I have thought about it but each time it has popped into my head I have been able to remember that all of my...
- Yesterday I saw some photos on Facebook of a friend of mine celebrating her boyfriends birthday at a local casino. I used to go with her to this casino and I started having flashbacks of the fun times I went with her. The flashbacks started coming...
- Today marks 21 days clean for me. The changes I have made in my life during this 21 day period are:1. Once a week to draw only 40.00 cash out of my account. (Having more than that in my wallet could be a trigger for me)2. Writing in my journal at...
- Today marks 14 days clean for me. This morning for the first time the pull of gambling came over me. I layed in bed and pondered about going to the casino. I decided to make an alternative plan and call a friend. We ended up going to see a movie and...
- Finally got my books ready for my accountant from the past 6 months. He is picking them up from my business tomorrow and I am nervous. He will see all the draws I have taken. I'm uncomfortable that he will now see this side of me but I don't answer...
- First time in a long time I made it a whole week without going to a casino. Towards this past weekend temptation was all around me. First on Friday while I was making my lunch for work in the morning I had the television playing in the background....