Hang in there. You can do this! I too have the urge and I keep reminding myself of the mess I have caused. Going to the casino will only lead back to square one. Find something to keep yourself busy and stay strong.

I do not believe your urge will go away after 90 days but at least the intensity that you felt when you were in action to return as soon as possible to recoup your losses from the previous day should have lessened. I have almost 9 months and still think about it but it fades quicker and I can reason it out better. Give yourself a pat on the back and not so absorbed over counting days. Every day I can wake up and not have to worry about that crap is a great day. When I have a bad day I can say "AT LEAST I DID NOT GAMBLE TODAY" and it makes the day look that much brighter. Try it.

Your life doesn't change in 90 days, but it gives you the room to change your life if you want to. The debt will be there in another 90 days as well. However, the more you use the tools towards sobriety and the farther and farther you get away from it, the easier and easier it will get to not be in the front of your mind. Finances will get better, but not right away. Don't add stress by thinking it's not getting better soon enough. Just do what you can every week, don't gamble and soon it will be much better. Fight on

Thank you all for the encouraging words. I did not gamble today. I went with a friend to a food fair and then saw a movie. As the day progressed the urge to gamble faded. Now I feel like I don't want to go anywhere near a casino.
Thank you all very much. I will continue to fight.

Hello, my friend. So glad to hear your day went well. Kind of like a roller coast ride, wouldn't you say? Well, the ride can't go on forever so just hang on. I'm trailing right behind you & not feeling so great myself. I think it's just part of the process. Take good care.......

In my nearly ten months of abstinence, between my face to face support group and GA I have witnessed many people relapse, some with over 3 years of abstinence.
I think a quote from George Carlin describes addiction and recovery pretty well: "Just because I got that monkey off my back, does not mean that the circus has left town."
I myself went through many slides before accumulating any abstinence. It appears also, that as folks get more distance from their addiction and life gets better, their inner gambler creeps out and grasps onto any weak places and can make an argument for why they should/could/want to gamble.
It seems our inner gambler is always with us, ready to reach out and entice us into the whole mess again.
Remembering my worst day gambling, (by writing it down, attending support groups and coming here to D/S) and counting my blessings, even keeping a gratitude diary, have been the tools I use to continually remind me that I don't want to go back to that insane, self-destructive and isolated place that gambling brought me to ever again.
You are doing great, you are where you can sanely assess where you've been and make conscience decisions about your actions. You have arrived at a place where you have the tools and a clear path, all you need to do is one step, one minute, one second at a time.
Take care of yourself in every way and know that all the kind and loving thoughts anyone has ever had for you, can still be with you and surround you as a protective armor as you walk on this arduous journey.

Thank you Quitfor good. Your words are powerful for me and inspiring.

Well, I'm on day 70 and have been praying to make it to say 90. So thank you for saving me from possible imminent disappointment if all urges are not gone on that "promised" day.