Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
Yesterday I saw some photos on Facebook of a friend of mine celebrating her boyfriends birthday at a local casino. I used to go with her to this casino and I started having flashbacks of the fun times I went with her. The flashbacks started coming to me throughout the day yesterday. It was very interesting that all of the photos that were passing in my mind were of me being in the casino and having fun playing on the machines. The pull to go to the casino and join my friends was very strong. But I was working and remembered I do not have any extra money now to play because of all the money that I had blown earlier in the year. Then I started thinking of all the recent debt that I have because of my bad decisions and I had been feeling very uncomfortable yesterday and full of worry for my financial state.
So today 25 days clean. Focusing on that and realizing that I have a true addiction that will challenge me at times. No matter how long I've been clean. As time goes by hopefully the pull to go to the casino will be less and less.
So today 25 days clean. Focusing on that and realizing that I have a true addiction that will challenge me at times. No matter how long I've been clean. As time goes by hopefully the pull to go to the casino will be less and less.
I find that I sleep a lot more. My last day off I took 3 naps, gee made for a sleepless night. I find that while sleeping I don't have any triggers. Be that as it may, I don't really want to sleep my life away either.
Twenty five day is something to be proud of. We have come to the conclusion that we do have a challenge and we must put road block in front of us in order to beat this.
Don't you find that your mind is more clear? I do. The anxiety that I was feeling has subsided. I do feel the anxiety when I think about the dept that I must now pay off. I have to stop myself from beating myself up and just get on with the fact that this can be fixed. What other chose do I have?
Yes when I sleep I am totally at peace. No triggers.
And yes my mind seems clearer.
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