amerprin

Today is Sunday, 9/6/15. Last year upon this day I was at the casino with a friend. We gave ourselves one hour before we had to meet up with some friends for lunch and activities. I remember it very...

92 days. Gambling urges are still there. Haven't acted upon it but contemplating. Can't figure out why I desire to go to a casino. Oh well. This disease is what it is. At least I'm not acting upon...

88 days and feeling sort of low energy and boredom lately. Taking my vitamins and trying to eat right. But refraining from gambling. This weekend so far I do not have plans yet. But looking at my...

Today marks 83 days clean for me. It's Sunday morning and planning my day. A big NO comes to my mind for making part of my day to go to a casino. Will not do it. Instead I am focusing what I will do...

Feeling the urge again to gamble. Ridiculous. I don't get it. I've worked so hard to stop and yet it still creeps in my head. Reading posts on here helps me to understand triggers. For me it is...

75 days. For one brief moment this morning I thought I should go to a casino today and try my luck. Justifying it because I've stayed away all this time. But quickly got a hold of myself and on this...

Well 73 days clean. No pull to go to casino today. No dreams either. Worried about money but I know that gambling is not the answer. I pray that God will somehow help me soon. Feeling stressed and...

Today I am so excited to say that I am now 70 days clean. Feeling much better about my life. Finances are a little better. Still have a mountain of debt but knowing that I can chip away at it and I...

Today feeling more focused and happy. Not even feeling the old pull that I used to feel about the casino. Actually feeling that gambling can definitely be a part of my past and will not allow myself...

64 days clean today. Starting to feel a lot calmer about my life and emotions. Really proud of myself that I am making it. Still have a stack of bills that hopefully after time I can get rid of....

Today marks 61 days clean for me. However temptation was all around me. I had a customer today that came into my shop. Spent 200.00 on herself today because she went gambling yesterday and won a huge...

Today is 57 days clean. Feeling kinda happy about it but also missing the escape. Everyday I do think about the casino. But not always wanting to go. Last weekend had an extremely strong pull to go...

This addiction is strange. Woke up this morning with a strong pull to go to a casino. The logical side of my brain seemed to be turned off and struggled with fighting the pull. Got out of bed and got...

Today marks 52 days for me. I'm very happy about this. I've been able to pay most of my bills this month. And having a little bit of fun as far as going to movies, saw a play, out to dinner,...

Amazing. That is how I feel. Much happier and I feel hopeful about my financial future. Things can only get better. So glad that I am keeping track of the days that I have not gambled. Feeling more...