Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
Finally got my books ready for my accountant from the past 6 months. He is picking them up from my business tomorrow and I am nervous. He will see all the draws I have taken. I'm uncomfortable that he will now see this side of me but I don't answer to him. I do feel bad that I had no control these past six months but looking forward to the next six months of clean books. Free of gambling. I feel like I have to write about it on here.
I'm hoping I will pass this hurdle and get stronger. I hate the fact that I wasted all of that money that my business earned. I hate the fact that I am my own worst enemy. I do not understand why I just couldn't quit. I'm sad when I think about the past 6 months. Such a waste of my life. I will never get it back.
Just felt like I had to vent my frustrations. Casinos make me sick. Every time I hear a commercial for them now I feel sick to my stomach.
I'm hoping I will pass this hurdle and get stronger. I hate the fact that I wasted all of that money that my business earned. I hate the fact that I am my own worst enemy. I do not understand why I just couldn't quit. I'm sad when I think about the past 6 months. Such a waste of my life. I will never get it back.
Just felt like I had to vent my frustrations. Casinos make me sick. Every time I hear a commercial for them now I feel sick to my stomach.
If you write out your feelings about your worst day gambling it could be the tool that helps you remember and it may keep you from going back to that lonely, hopeless place.
I am sending you mental vibes of strength and serenity to use while your accountant is going over your books.
((hugs))
That is a great suggestion about writing my last experience with gambling. That will be my weekend activity.
I always am so embarrassed about my frequent atm withdrawals or teller withdrawals. Withdraw $300 then back in an hour to withdraw $200 more and on and on until there is nothing left to withdraw. I'm sure the bank personnel know and I'm sure this is common because active gamblers deplete funds so fast. It is really no one's business about the money though.
One thing to add, can you deduct your gambling losses? That will help with reducing your tax payment.
I think it is important to know the numbers so it will prevent me from NOT living the truth and I can move forward. This way I cannot pretend or fool myself into thinking it is not that much. And then I will not slip and go back to my old life.