knarfia

Well, here we are.  After fighting tooth and nail for total financial control, I've gotten my wish.  I should feel relieved, but I don't.  My husband looks like a shell of a man.  He looks at me...

That you were the reason I was "so hard on you." You were an awful mother- emotionally abusive, and you caused others to physically abuse me.My brother, the Golden Child, beat me because he knew you...

About a year ago, when my life was in chaos and I was in the throws of a possible divorce, my brother came up to "help" me.  How he viewed his role here as helping, I'm not sure.  When my 2 year...

So mad at myself.  Completely lost it today.  Told F I was going to file for separation.  "Why?" "Because you're the worst person I've ever known and I don't want anything to do with you right...

He always insisted on driving.  Everywhere.  Even if I was going to get my hair done, he'd pack up the kids and drive around for an hour or two.  He always handled my business for the kids and me....

Can't remember my dream last night, but I certainly remember what happened before I went to bed.  I called my aunt Karen- the cheerleader of my marriage.  I wanted to speak with my mom, but she...

Was working out today.  Counting my reps- one, Mississippi, two Mississippi- when I realized- there are so many things I need to tell myself.  Why waste breath on Mississippi?  Why not tell myself...

Sent F a text this morning:I'm sorry that I tried to make you be my perfect man.  I suffocated you and led you to escape to gaming.  Wishing you happiness in your new life."Why did I do this?  I...

Well, darn.  I was really hoping for another dream message, but I can't remember much from last night's.  Here's what I do remember:Something about a pool.  A friend from high school was there....

My dreams, my dreams!  They tell me things!  That dream last night where my dad was eager to help me burn F's clothes- I knew it meant something.  Today he offers to buy the house from under us!...

Truly, what am I holding on to?  Is it that I don't have any concrete evidence that he intended to do something with this girl?  If I did, would it be any easier?  I know I'm better off without...

Why do I care if he wants to be with me or not?  He says he wants to work this out, but somehow I know that's not true.  It's just something he's saying to ease his conscience.  Yes, he messed up,...

The night before I found the conversation my husband was having online with a 15 year old, I had a dream that a gorgeous young girl told me he'd been flirting with her, and that she had shown him...