Apology Texting

Sent F a text this morning:
I'm sorry that I tried to make you be my perfect man.  I suffocated you and led you to escape to gaming.  Wishing you happiness in your new life."
Why did I do this?  I suppose it's true.  He knew how nervous I would get when he went out with the guys, so he stayed home and played his game.  I probably did play a big part in his gaming addiction.  But he certainly wasn't deserving of an apology.  And now he's texting like crazy, saying we can work this out, yada yada.  Looking back I can see that I probably only did this because it was killing me that he hadn't texted me this morning.  So ridiculous.  Really need to get control of myself.  Took the kids to the pool- amazing time.  Loving this freedom, for the most part.  It's just that the loneliness hits me hard every once in a while.  I've been through this before- and honestly, I don't even think I loved him as much as I have other men.  I just loved the way he treated me, the way we were together.  There was never any passion.  I'm sure he felt that, too.