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Today I feel really out of it. It's hard to describe, but it's like I didn't wake up this morning and I'm still dreaming. I don't like it.

I feel like I'm going to cave in on myself. I'm trying so hard to focus on myself, but the truth is I'm letting some people get to me. It hurts when I'm in a bad mood and my complaining is annoying...

I'm sorry to everyone that I am such a horrible friend =(

How do I get motivation? Where can I find it?

 I'm screwed up.I know I have to be screwed up because the world keeps shutting me in. I will never find a job, and if I ever do it wont last long because nobody wants a depressed employee. I'm...

I hated the doctors app, every minuet of it. As soon as the doctot asked about if I was in school or working I burst into tears and couldn't stop through out the entire appointment.  She ruled out a...

I finally made a appointment for my stomach and digestive problems. Even though I don't throw up everything anymore, since Sunday I've started to feel worse. =(

I don't know why it has been so hard for me to post my journals for you guys to read. For a while now I've become to anxious to even talk about whats hurting me online. Iv'e become a mess. Wy is it...

.... I don't have anything new to journal about. lol

I've lost approximetely 15 pounds now in the last 2 weeks. I no longer give a damn about what's wrong with my health, in fact I hope I'm at 0 real soon.

I don't know what to do. I don't think I can wait till my insurance kicks in to go to a doctor. And even if I could I would have to take time off work. I'm still in probation for another 3 months....

For the past 3 months I have completely lost my appitie. Occasionaly after starving myself I can finally feel hungry enough to eat something that counts as a whole meal. But that happens about once a...

I'm having problems with the internet in my new apartment. For some reason my computer does not like Verizon. Anyone have any ideas? My computer says it has excellent strength when I use my...

Yesterday around the late afternoon I started to experience a panic attack. It was really bad. I went to the clinic and the doctor gave me a muscle relaxent .Now I can breathe again, but my heart is...

Not only sands and gravelsWere once more on their travelsBut gulping muddy gallonsGreat boulders off their balanceBumped heads together dullyAnd started down the gully.Whole capes caked off in...