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Been busy packing. I guess I will be moving in with my grandma on the 1st or 2nd of next month, not sure which day.=/  

I'm back to being addicted to my usual sleeping pills regiment, does someone have any advice for helping fall asleep, and to stop with the pills?

Sorry for saying the wrong things and offending people on here. Sorry for unloading and obviously making people feel uncomfortable. I guess I just thought since I've been here all along helping other...

Starting last night I got this anxious feeling. I kept me up all night and now it's reaching the end of today and I still have it. I'm worried this feeling wont be going away for a long time. And...

Today I went to the beach. It was nice to get out of the house and actually go somewhere besides the library or grocery store. I thought alot about myself, the time was good. A little update.Talk...

I'm tired of having no job, struggeling to take care of myself. I'm tired of feeling like shit and having disaster after disaster crumbel down on me and make my depression worse. Before my lows...

I recieved an emial from my college, it was from my career adivisor. What good she has done. It was one of those computerized generic ones that gets sent out to mulitple people at once. It was...

My friends left DS, No one freaking talks to me now.... I literally log on every hour to sit here and send out hugs that get ignored. I do what everyone says and try to make new friends, and type all...

Today as I was going to get the mail, and my neighbor who I rarely see [I never leave my house] came out and stood on her porch. She had her hands on her hips and had this look on her face like she...

I'm just a worhtless peice of shit...My opinions are stupid, and unimportant. I hate myself because everyone hates me... When I go away no one will care. No one cares when I'm here.   I now have 4...

That feeling of pointlessness has come back again. I don't even want to get up out of bed anymore, whats the point? I have no life, no way to make myself a real person. I'm stuck feeling this way,...

Still ranting about my cousin. She has been MIA for the past 3 weeks now. Nobody knows where she is living, who's she's with, or if she even found a job to support herself. My Aunt threw her out for...

Lately on DS things haven't been that sociable. Discovered a lot of accounts that are MIA. Friends I used to chat with havent been on in months... Kinda makes me sad. Trying to make conversation ...

So I tried one more time this morning to conact one of my friends to go out and do something. After hearing "sorry I'm too busy" for the last time, I just decided that today is my day, not theirs so...

I won't be on DS for a while, I'm done. Every little thing people are saying to me is hitting me twice as hard, and I'm tired of crying all the time. I'm tired of coming to this place to feel better...