paddywest

I have made it the whole week without a glass of wine or a cocktail.  Last night Mike made himself and Maker's Mark and I started to say make me one but I thought about how well I have been...

It is day three with no drinking.....an interesting observation.  I feel so proud of myself in the morning when I wake up knowing I did not have wine with dinner or a cocktail with my husband.  I...

Now that I am not drinking at night I am having terrible insomnia.  I broke down last night and took a Lorazapam.  I don't want to get to where I take one of those every night!!! I feels so good...

Well, Mom is here.....I was having so much anxiety about it yesterday.  Now that she is here I am okay. She has not been here for two winters.  At first Pearl, the dog, was leery of her but then...

I have not written in this journal for a while.  Getting frustrated with myself.  I know that I am stressed because my mother is coming and we just don't get along very well and it causes a lot of...

I hate Facebook...My wacko "daughter in law"( I put in quotations because my son has been with this girl for three years and they are not married, Thank God, posts on Facebook at 11:25pm some...

Oh man....I am sore and tired!!!  Three days of intense workouts and then stood here for hours making cake pops for a friend.  Got them done.  I hope I can be lazy today.....

Tired.  Crazy week.  Something every night.  And today, after working out, I have to make cake pops for a friends baby shower!!!  Am going to chill tomorrow. Went to dinner with the ladies from...

My therapist told me that I need to just learn moderation and stay away from the vodka.I went to a meeting last night and had two glasses of wine. Sometimes I think I drink because I am so damn sore...

Second day no drinking!!!  It was not bad.  I was busy last evening so I just came home and made a quick dinner.Went to see the counselor.  She is pretty laid back.  She thinks I can do it on my...

I have been writing in this journal almost daily but keeping the posts to myself.  I am now going to expose myself.I am 61 years old.  I was forced into retirement last year when I lost my...

Shit.  I took an Ambien again and it did not help me at all!!!!!  I ended up getting up at 12:00 and taking a Lorazapam so I could get some sleep.  I feel so damned drugged.  What do I do?  

Tired, sore from working out and lose no weight!!!!!  Took an Ambien and it did not work!!!!!I think I drink because I am tired and sore.  A vodka and two wines..... What to do?

Well, I got out of the house without having a drink.  Shit, they were going to drink ice tea and I asked if anyone was drinking.  It was stressful.  I was tired and really did not feel like...

So far it has not been bad.  Had nothing on Sunday and nothing yesterday.  I have decided that I am going to start cooking more gourmet meals.  But then the first one I cook has white wine and I...