charlton12

Has been a few days since my last journal entry. Still going ok so far. I feel as though I am opening up to my wife more and more. Things that I would normally avoid talking about, I am now...

Talking with my wife last night, and she commented on the fact that I am volunteering information and giving honest answers to questions that the answers might prove to be awkward. It does seem as...

Now is the moment I need to set an example for my daughter, encourage her to learn positive behaviour patterns. I don't want her to look back on childhood and remember arguments caused by my lies. I...

I am genuinely, honestly curious about the answer to this question? Does it ever get better? Is there a point you reach where you don't worry about if you're going to slip? What happens if you do...

It is said that 21 days is what it takes to make something new become a habit. I feel as though this new one of being honest is going to take longer than that. But still going ok. Am almost a month...

I worry about how I am going to do over the next few weeks with this whole new me. Why is it so hard not to be dishonest. Is it part of my nature? I can't believe that. There would be no hope for me...

I sometimes feel as though I can't put a foot right. Not wrong, right. It seems as though any little thing can escalate into something it really shouldn't be. Is this a sign that my wife has had...

It is time to identify triggers that cause me to lie. Those situations or questions that immediately make the crap fly from my mouth. I know with my wife it's to avoid getting in trouble for...

Am I really doing enough to change? I am not sure. I want to believe I am, but don't know at the moment. I have nothing to hide, have told no lies to my wife about anything, and at the moment, things...

Touch wood, things are still going ok so far. There have been one or two little moments where it does seem as though my behaviour may be changing. I have yet to beat a big test, but I feel that I may...

Was asked what I found in the cupboard as I was clearing it out by my wife. Told her everything, including about the old financial stuff that I had shoved in there. That was that. No saying that the...

I look at my progress bar and wish I could move it up, even just a fraction, but I haven't earned the right to do that yet. We are in the same pattern, things are good but there are still discussions...

I do think there is a change happening, slowly, but it is happening, I think. Clearing out a cupboard I found an old bag full of papers that i think I have dealt with, but am not sure. A few weeks...

I don't know about the others who use this, but I find the journal to be quite helpful. All the things that prey on my mind I can put down. So far, I have kept to my promises. Still early days...

Almost 2 weeks have passed since our argument. We are getting better, relationship hopefully getting strong again. It feels good having the natural ease back with each other that I missed so much. I...